Separation Anxiety

Not Bradley - me! A couple weeks ago one of my best friends got married. It was a 3 1/2 day event in Denver and Lyons. It started on a Thursday night with the bachelorette party and ended on Sunday morning the day after the wedding. From the planning stages I knew that I was going to have to pick and choose what I was going to be able to do and not do - partially because of breastfeeding and partially because of me not wanting to be away from Mr Bradley.

The main thing was I was supposed to go to the rehearsal and rehearsal dinner starting at 4 on Friday night and then stay the night up there, and Kevin and Bradley would come up the next day for the wedding at 4. I was really worried about being away from Bradley for 24 hours when I hadn't been away from him for longer than 4 hours before! I felt much better about the situation when I found out that Kevin and Bradley could come to the rehearsal with me, then drive back down that night and at least I'd get to see them for that amount of time - so that was the plan.

Then on Friday when I was getting ready, Bradley was taking his nap and it was about 2:00 and I was supposed to leave at 3:00. Kevin and I started talking about how it probably would be better for them to just stay so they wouldn't have to drive back and forth, we wouldn't have to wake up Bradley from his nap, and he wouldn't have to stay up late. So - hesitantly - I agreed that I would just go and they'd stay home and see me tomorrow. Then --- while I was packing up my stuff, running around the house like a crazy person trying to get ready in time - I started FREAKING out! I started thinking about how I wouldn't get to say good-bye to him, or good-night to him, or see him when he wakes up, or see him at all for more than 24 hours!! The whole hour between 2 and 3 I was trying to convince myself that it was going to be ok and I was just being stupid and I'd get over it - but then when it was time for me to leave at 3 I just started bawling!!! Bradley was still sleeping and Kevin was resting on the bed and I came in the room - crying and crying saying "I just can't do it! Can you please please come? I just can't leave him" Totally freaking out! So Kevin had to jump up and get ready, I had to rush and get all of Bradley's stuff together and we had to wake him real fast and put him in the car and leave - it was a mess! I'm ridiculous! But that's just how I am - I did NOT want to be gone from my baby for that long!! It was still hard saying goodbye to them that night and sleeping without him for the first time. Anyways - the wedding was wonderful - Jenny (the bride) looked amazing and happy and everyone had a great time! Here's a picture of Katie, Me, Mr B, Jenny, and Anna.